With Julie getting married this Saturday I've been thinking a lot about my wedding which seems like a lifetime ago. But it hasn't even been a year and a half yet! All the excitement and newness of being married is fun. I didn't think it could get any better but it did, and for Christmas last year I told James he was going to be a Daddy! Pregnancy is hard but wonderful and the miracle we received at the end of those long 9 months is more than I could have ever asked for. Hudson is such a good baby. It is me that struggles and sometimes feels like a bad mommy because I don't always know what to do for him. But I know that is part of the learning process and I am learning to be more patient with myself. He is so fun when he giggles with me and I can see in his eyes that he knows me. I keep telling him that I am his mom, mostly because I want that to be his first word but I hear that Dad usually comes first. Oh well! At least I can say that I tried.
I'm also extremely grateful for James who is so good to me and tries to make me believe that I am a good mom. I know I couldn't do it without him. Time goes fast and I am learning to enjoy the little moments!


